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What's up with this new format???? It changes the way I write my post...Hate it!

When it rains it pours?

A very nice lady called me this morning at 8:00 to tell me that she had managed to get me in for rotator cuff surgery on May 29 at 2:15(she parted the sea to make this happen). This is awesome because I am trying to get it done before my husbands company possibly declares bankruptcy at the end of the month. We are pretty sure we have the option of COBRA...but at $2500 a month... because I have a preexisting condition we are STUCK! The recovery from this surgery is the bitch as I spoke of before ;-( I have been told I probably won't be able to go back to work for a couple of months and 6 months of PT. Today I got a EKG and the blood work done. I have hard veins to find so it's never very pleasant. I'm a little worried about the IV because it is so late in the afternoon, I will be very dehydrated. Any tips? This Saturday we are renting a van and driving up to San Francisco to pick up DS2. He is a junior at SFSU and this is his first summer to come home. We are leaving his bed and a few things at our friends in Half Moon Bay and the rest we are bringing home. It is at least a 8 hour drive each way....but it will help take my mind off of the up coming surgery. We are going to take Hwy 101 back and stop in Pismo Beach. DS2 turned 21 on May 2 so we are going to take him to a few wineries.....FUN!!! Memorial weekend DS1, DIL and grandbaby are coming here to stay for 4 days. We get to watch our grandson overnight for the first time because they are going to a wedding down south. I am so excited...So as you can see I have plenty besides getting ready for immobility to keep me occupied. I don't think I ever mentioned that I am the executrix of a dear friend of ours trust. He passed away on 1/21/12. OMG you can't even imagine how much time I am spending taking care of his affairs. He had 92 years of STUFF! I am getting closer to being able to put his house on the market... but there is NO end in sight. My husband has worked for this company for 16 years and they have been in this situation before. Really never this close and now they have to be out of their building by the first of June. This is all very scary....and he carries the weight of the world on his shoulders...But, we are trying to stay sane! Barbara...this might be up your alley...he is in clinical development. Sorry this is all over the place...but I wanted you all to know what might be going on if you don't hear from me for a while. Enjoy the beautiful weather...I'll be watching my garden grow! XO

What a cry baby I am

Well... today I received the blow I was hoping wouldn't come. I've told you that I've been having shoulder issues and I finally went to the doctor a couple of months ago to deal with it. He took x ray's and said my rotator cuff looked good and prescribed 6 (expensive)weeks of physical therapy....with little or NO improvement. So Tuesday I had a MRI on my shoulder ...then went to the dermatologist an hour later and had 2 Moh's surgeries done on the same shoulder ( 1 was shallow ...the other took 4 times) of cutting out tissue to get rid of Squeamous (?) celled skin cancer. It hurts... but that's not what I'm going to die from. Now today, Thursday, I go back to see the orthopedic surgeon for the results of my MRI and he say's I have: Type 1 Superior labrum anterior to Posterior (SLAP) tear. Full thickness Supraspinatus Tear and Full thickness Infrasinatus Tear. I need surgery, some will be open and some laproscopic. It is out patient ......BUT....here's what REALLY SUCKS....6 week NO nothing....6 month PT restoring partial use and 1 year for full recovery , if there are no issues. He looked at the 2 stitched up spots on the back of my shoulder and told me he couldn't do anything until they healed because of the risk of infection in an open wound at the surgery site. I had to go sit in my car and cry................NO FAIR!! I've tried sooooo hard to lose this weight and swimming is my answer. If you have followed me you might remember that I have really bad feet and knee's and was told at one point that I would be in a wheel chair within 5 years.......But NO I took up swimming 13 years ago and have lost 60 pounds. It's the best thing that I have done for myself. Now this.........Oh Please!!!! To throw a few more wrenches into everything ...my husbands company is on the edge of going under in the next few weeks and then we will forced into COBRA along with all the other Sh***T that goes along with it. If you look at my calendar the next couple of months are booked with wedding's, babysitting Gunnar, bringing DS2 home from college with most of his stuff and the list goes on and on. NO FAIR! The doctor say's the sooner the better, because your muscle starts turning to fat with out use and it makes it harder to heal. So here I sit......you know what I did first thing? Went and bought a candy bar on the way out of the doctors office and sat in the car eating it while I was crying......pathetic! I've not really lost any weight for almost a year and go up and down between 1 and 3 pounds. Not bad ...but would still like to lose another 25 pounds. I'm worried about NO activity for sooo long. I'm not really a sit down person. He said I would still be able to work after a week or two. Jewelry being the heaviest thing I can pick up for 6 weeks.... CRAZY....I just keep thinking of more SH**T! Everything I read on line about this say's swimming might not be an option any more. I think I'll stop this pity party now... Thanks for listening!