Too long!!

I read everyones blogs ---and love and learn from them---but somehow I feel like it is tooo much of an effort to write my thoughts down.

After reading at one point that BG kept track of all her information on FitDay --I too started to keep track of what I ate, the calories and protein.(Thank You for the help) It was a good thing for a couple of months then I started to feel like a slave to it. Then when I read on "Gen's greatest 100 pound loser's"(sorry if the name is wrong) that BG really didn't keep track physically any longer and really wasn't on a diet --I too in a frustrated moment decided to quit journaling. After all that is really one of the reasons why I got the LB--so I wouldn't always feel like I was dieting. My attitude is good --I am in it for the long haul---but---damn---the weight loss is slow. I have lost 3 or 4 pounds in the last 3 months.

I had my first throwing up episode the other night. We had gone to a friends house for dinner after a very busy 10 hr day at work and I wasn't able to eat or drink much that day. There wasn't much LB friendly food to eat(tri-tip that you couldn't chew enough) and I ended up drinking a lot of great wine. When DH and I finally got home around 1am, he pulled out a big bag of Dorito chips so I joined in. About 2 handfuls went down pretty easy BUT then look out-- I was standing over my bathroom sink pucking like crazy ( NO FUN!!!)

I am learning that my LB has it's own mind. At random times it will decide to be tight --while others I can eat anything( mostly the latter). WHAT WILL MY SWEET SPOT FEEL LIKE??? Or is this it??

Dazed after the 4th

The long weekend is over --but somehow I am having a hard time getting back on the wagon. We did have a great time with family and friends-
It was also the first year my DH and I haven't volunteered to work at a fire works booth for 5 years or more. NICE!!

Someday I promise to learn how to take pictures and add them to my blog---they really do make for a more interesting story ;-)

After my second fill 3 weeks ago I was amazed at how restriction felt. Now I feel a little stuck if I eat too fast --so I slow down and wait 5 minutes or so. I can eat anything and do not really fill up fast. I am having a hard time not eating too much and making the right choices. I do feel like I can have anything I want but try to keep the portions smaller. I have lost 6 pounds in the last 3 1/2 months and none really since my 3cc fill 3 weeks ago. My next fill isn't until Aug 18th. DANG!!!
I am pretty good with exercise--I swim 3-4 days a week (laps for 45 mins )and work standing up for 10 hours every Friday. Besides taking care of a yard and garden and keeping the house clean ---that's about all the standing up my feet can handle.

I wonder where my sweet spot will be---and what will it feel like? I hope it stops me from wanting to eat!